Unhappy love

I went to a physiotherapist yesterday. My right leg that spends more time hurting than not hurting was getting bad even for itself and I've signed up to run Aarhus Halvmarathon on Sunday. As there wasn't enough time to go to the doctors and I was not sure how much my general practitioner could do for me anyway, I just popped by a physio office next to my house. I just wanted to ask if it's like with any other muscle soreness that if I'll run it gets better; or when it hurts even when im just sitting, should I just rest the whole week and do what I can on sunday.
I kept my self very conscious of the fact that it's a physiotherapist and therefore it's in her genes to be more worried than the thing is worth and prohibit all sorts of things that shouldnt actually be so bad. Still, what she said made me quite sad.
According to her running and me are done. She said it's a ad idea for me to be running and it's an especially bad idea to be running on Sunday.
Then she made me an ultrasound and it got even worse :D ( it's not funny at all, its awful and ridiculous :/). I have never thought that ultrasound has something to do with sound. But I figured it out quite fast when she came with a machine with now screen, but what made an awful sound when approaching my sore leg and more and more quiet sound when it got further from it. So no sound - good sound. Then again - no sound at my thigh, a small quiet beeping at the knee, and almost -omg-where's-my-earplugs-sound at my ankle. Turnes out I have an untreated reoccurring inflammation in my muscles and bones of the right ankle caused by overuse. And every time I get it, more and more scartissue forms, that makes it even more tight, uncomfortable and susceptible to a new inflammation.
According to the physio it should e no running and just RICE treatment for a couple of weeks (Rest, Ice, Compression, Elevate). And then I should change my sports to for example biking or swimming (öööömh?...:()
In case I want to keep on running, I should give it about a month, then start by very small distances again, cool it down and make a compress after every time I run and only run 3 times a week for some like 3 weeks. And then maybe increase, but keep icing it after running until..the rest of my life.
I figured she's just being a physio.
But then she called me at 7pm from a home phone. Said she had consulted with some running specialist and wants to make sure I understand that by no means they can't recommend me to run on Sunday. And that it's serious and she can see that Im still planning to run, but I shouldnt and its so so so so so bad idea. And there's more treatment plans than the ones she already gave me and she'd like to talk about them (she even mentioned surgery :/). Almost got me very freaked out, but then I guess her more humanistic less physioistic side took power and she was like - ut if you're gonna run on sunday, come by Friday evening and we'll help you to tape it properly. So that's what Im gonna do. Plus eat a lot of painkillers Sunday morning and take good care of it afterwards. And then..then we'll see. But I promise I dont like biking more than just a good means of transportation. And I dont like swimming as a sport :(. And I promise when I think of quitting running I'm almost as sad as I was once when the horse I had been riding forever was sold. And thats being very sad.
It's just like being genuinely in love with some one who genuinely doesnt deserve you. You like someone/something and it makes you happy and all you want to do is spend your time with him, hoping it all gets better. But it doesnt and it just keeps hurting you. and it doesnt do you any good and you know that you should leave and quit the whole thing but you still keep doing it, hoping things will change or not thinking about it at all.
as said.. Sometimes it lasts in love and sometimes it hurts instead

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AbXnLn5-7MA

and that'll be the end of the post.

I keep you posted.
And by the way, you can follow me running on my Fb wall (here) live on Sunday :)

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whiny girl
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