Birthday week :)

I wish I had more time. I learn, experience and think about so many different things and then I would like to write down what I think of what and why, just to share it, get reflections and reconsider. But there's so many things and so little time, that I manage to think all my thoughts through and around and change my mind about them so many times, that in the end I dont know what to say.
I think that's the process of learning - getting confused and more confused and more confused within some things and then finally reaching some understanding, that enables you to get confused about some new thing.

Last week, during the paskeferie, I was doing my workplacement, that still hasn't officially started. There was this throwing camp for young elithes in Denmark, and the camp lasted from Saturday until last Friday. Besides that I was following the coach Simon around in other practices, so all day every day of the last week, I was in a sports environment. That meant two throwing sessions out on the field, and about three workouts in the gym every day, meeting a  lot of new people, some of whom have already won the olympic games, even repeatedly and some who are sure they are going to, watching a lot of movies, readying some things on the internet and learning so much. About shot putting and throwing discus, about coaching, about people, about proffessional sports, myself and who I wanna be and..ooh. But it also ment eating with professional sportsmen. And not just random ones, but the one's who's main goal is to get big, get ripped :D. Therefore having a buffet every day for lunch where they "eat as much as possible. and then some more" and then dinner with dessert as well. So now I think I might get ripped as well :/:D:D
All in all we had so much fun, did so many things and I have many new thoughts to write here. And on 5th of April we even went swimming in the sea :). I'll add some photos too when I get them.


Now it's two weeks until the end of school, so keeping the excitement down, Im trying to learn the last things; and its three weeks until the beginning of work placement, so Im trying to make my last big efforts to get as strong and smart as possible. Im already so tired  of living out of exercising, eating and reading, but it's this nice tiredness of making an effort to improve. And once again I have to be surprised, how fast it's possible to improve at something in the start. I have never been much of a going-to-gym kind of girl and if I did, I ran and did some stomach and back exercises and something with dumbells and then when about an hour was done, went back home. But now, when I've been actually doing something to get bigger and stronger and making a real effort, Im shocked how strong I am. :D not obviously compared to strong people, but compared to myself before all this. I know I have a long way to improve, but now I really want to get strong and be fit and have muscles. I used to be this runner/biker/roller skater and never really thought of nor felt as if getting any muscles or doing strenght training, but suddenly Im so into it, I dont know if I ever can get out and I hope I wont.

With all the new thoughts from the camp, I had rested and digested enough throughout the weekend and yesterday made an exercise program first thing in the morning. Then I got so excited about it myself that I needed to try it out, so I did. It was soooo...good. I had put in only the exercises I like to do but that are challenging, and then I almost mastered some of them. No. I didn't really, but I know Im going to :). The only problem with the program is that it's too long and missing some exercises, so I might need to make it into two different ones. It's real basic and real nice program, so I can post it here as well, but I'll do it in the end of the week, as then I have had some time to figure out how exactly should it be. So that's what I'll be doing in my birthday week :).
I have some thoughts about growing up as well, but I'll write them as a grown up :).


Right now I had a chocolate candy and then watched this
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jzktJYFkEJ0
now I cannot eat my lunch.



By the way quarter of the year is now done, how's the new-years promises going? They better be at least quarter-way filled, or you gotta start working hard.

The last post from
20-year-old Kirsi Kaups :)