Wintersleep ended

Heyhey!

I'm sorry there has been zero posts posted this year. I think I did fall to winter sleep. And I have been working on a post or a couple, but I am not quite sure what I think of these things yet and didn't want to write another confusing little thing. So I kept on waiting to make up my mind or conclude the thoughts so I could make statements. That's still not done, so I'll just post a little update meanwhile.

What's been going on:
First there was New Years Eve. That was cool.
Then there was a little bit time to kind of get started with the year, and begin to train more again after the celebrations. Then  on week 3 I had a 1-week-exam and I was working on the same time too. So there was very little sleep and training, very strange schedule and eating patterns and kind of low self-esteem not being sure if the exam, that was the cause of all these things, was even turning out good or not really.
Strange, but very true, that there is such a big difference between knowing what and how to do and actually doing it. I always keep talking about babysteps and taking things easy..But I think what happened was, that even though I made no new-years resolutions, I still planned to train and eat well and be very good at everything in 2013, and then when the exam came and took up all the time, even though just for a week, I already felt like a failure and lost the motivation. For everything.
Then week 4 was all free from school, just work. So while I was not at work, I felt like relaxing after that crazy exam week. Probably because of the loss of motivation for other stuff, I really enjoyed staying home, watching movies and reading books, or going out with friends and being so tired afterwards that stayed home some more and read some more books. I did take walks and stuff as well, but other than that no training. And I was also trying to figure out where to do my work placement (the part that I am not doing in Estonia) and what masters degree I would like to take. But that seemed confusing and stressful as well.

Then the school started again and I was really looking forward to it. I also started running again and going to the gym at school. However, it wasn't quite as cool as I expected. School schedule was like 2 days at school, 5 off, 1 at school 3 off; first my knee, then my hip started hurting from running so I couldn't run anymore and then it was, again, just working and doing that internshipfinding thing (sitting by my computer checking facebook every two minutes :/) . I was also applying for jobs. But getting back these "no thanks but good luck searching for something else" - e-mails was not fun either. So it seemed that if there's no school, no training and just working, then I can at least spend time with friends. The problem is, that if I am not happy about myself I usually feel in a way being bad for my friends as well.

But what was really cool at that time was that me and my brother were writing this book for my mum for her birthday. We wrote down some funny childhood memories and added photos and made it to a real book. My mum was so happy :).

When the book was done, I traveled to Estonia for a week. That was soooo good :). Seeing my family and friends, just chilling in my mother's nice apartment, being at home, mum's party...it was SO good. :). And mother know's what's good for children - I got my mum's prettiest bag that I have been in love with forever.

So now I'm back in Denmark and feel all motivated, happy and as if I can do anything and everything, having that bag.
I got a very good grade for the exam, found a new job, or even two, have been doing well on my cross-fit machine imitating running but trying to save the hip, to get better, and I even have school about 4 times a week now. I know it might sound geeky, but it is much much better than two.

I like spring and life and everything that comes with it :).
The post I mentioned, I've been working on, is about stress and health and mental health, the world and society, and about me. It will be posted soon, no stress :)

So far, have fun and go outside, it's nice :)
I'll go to my new work now :P
k.