Part 2

Anyway. I am going to stick with “planning” my eating and training. But just so that I’d have time for it all. And of course the money and the bills and my future, but just as much as necessary. So they’d be okay, so that I’d have time to be me and not worry about them :)

I am also going to stick with the time-schedule for the assignment as a guidance, and of course I can write here, what I end up concluding about body ideals and their influence on health behavior, but I can get it done without daily letting the world know, how am I doing with it. That was a stupid idea, sorry.

I did get too crazy with all this. For a while already, struggling between who I felt like and who I thought I somewhy have to be, between “being a health professional” and “being me”, thinking and feeling and finding no balance, ending up eating-training-doing too much or too little (because that’s what we learned in school might happen to people, and then I Thought, it is happening to me, so I Thought I might do it and so i did), looking like neither and +/- 5 kg every second week. Okay, exaggerating again, but to make my point again.
Yeah. I don’t know how writing all this here is going to affect me as a health professional. Or even if it should be here. But of course it should, because the whole story is about me becoming one, and you better know what you preach, right? ;)

So I will stick with planning, but just as some kind of structure. I know I am nerdish and I like to learn and discover and discuss, so of course I write as good of a paper as I can. And I know that I can’t sit down all day, so of course I’ll exercise, but when I feel like doing it and it’s a suitable moment, not when it is time to do it. And I am a human, so obviously I will eat, and eat again when I am hungry again. And when I don’t over or undereat, I will get hungry again after every 2 or 3 hours and eat again, so I don’t have to look at the clock and be like “oh, it’s meal-time”. Daah.

I am Kirsi and I am a health professional. Or at least eager to become one :P

Have fun, be cool and do what you wanna do :).

..And trust yourself enough to know that you wanna do the right things :). And if you go wrong, learn from it and go on :)

See you and happy spring  :P