Summary #2

By now I think I have completely got into the habit of not eating meat. I haven't thought about it forever and I haven't been making any food I couldnt eat. I dont focus so much on my protein intake anymore and now it seems to be fine again :). I feel so good and have a lot of energy.
Mondays now actually are the days where I have the most energy and I'm really rested and ready for the whole week as apparently all I do in the weekends is resting :). But I think I need to go out at least once before March ends and I have to make it a rule because otherwise I'll just keep hiding from the difficult situations at home. Maybe. Because I can imagine it being pretty hard going out and drinking juice or cofee or coke while others are drinking alcohol and getting more and more drunk and funny and gonna start smoking and then go crab a sharwarma or something. On the other hand I'm not sure if its actually a difficult situation or is it just..pointless. And annoying. Because why would I join people doing something if I dont wanna do it myself. Whatever. Im gonna go out and try (it's not like I have never done it before :D).
But it is so weird how the world is (or is it just my brain again). For example we had this party at my dorm on Friday. And around 1am I heard my doorbell, but I was too sleepy to understand what or where it is or what shall I do, so I didnt do anything. And then again at 3am, but when I finally reached the door there was noone there. And then again at 6 when I finally woke up, opened the door and there was loads of my neighbors all in proper party mood asking why was I asleep and not partying and telling me what a great party it had been. And then yesterday I went to ask the sauna key from another of my neighbours and he asked me as well why hadnt I been at the party and I really didnt know. For me it was..I saw the poster but I didnt even think of going there as I knew Im not drinking. And isnt that weird. As it was just in my building I could have gone and chatted with people and danced, but no, i didnt even come to my mind.
But I promise to go out next weekend. I think I even know where to and with who :).

But so far so good, Im doing great and feel amazing! :)

Cheesy Sunday

Sunday menu (Oh I ate a lot of cheese :D)

Breakfast at 12:30
two fried eggs, 2 pieces of ryebread, 1 tomato, 1 slice of american cheese, yogurt and almonds.
Lunch 14:30
steamed cauliflower, frozen vegetable mix and potatoes covered with cheese. Beetroot, champignons and natural yogurt

Dinner 19:00
puree made of potato, carrot and cauliflower, with cheese and a piece of ryebread with cheese :D. :D:D:D.

homemade applepie :)
Snack after sauna watching a movie: grapes, applepie, peppermint tea :) yum.

Im so sleepy. goodnight :)

Why I love running

Running is something I've always been doing and probably will always do (ok, lets exclude the both ends of life where it's likely  to be impossible). For me it's like the most right feeling ever. I love how first your heart starts bumping faster and your whole body gets warm. Once warmed up it's almost ridiculously cool to run faster and slower and uphill and downhill. Running makes me do things I'd usually never do. It makes the things that are usually considered inappropriate suddenly seem perfectly fine. For example when walking down the street with my friends I'd never jump into a bush just because I can. But when running, if I just get this idea ' oh such a cool forest, I wanna run there', I can just turn off the road and run in the middle of nothing, jumping over branches, rocks, fallen trees, run as fast as you can, just jog and watch the nature find a small river and run through it, because you're all hot and dirty and enjoying it anyway and as I said inappropriate things are suddenly fine so people wont look at you weird if your dirty when you have your running clothes on.
With practising sports in general it's like, in my opinion, it lets you free, its like being a kid again..you can use your creativity and do whatever comes to your head, jump onto/off/over random things, do (or attempt) chin-ups on branches of trees, standing on something completely random and unbalanced doing a squat, falling on your ass and just laughing cause its so dumb and you really wanna do it again..ooh it's amazing :).
I think gyms are just playgrounds adjusted for grown-ups = made 'appropriate'= boring and without colors and random things just so you for God sake wouldn't have to think or use your creativity. But it is so cool to do it. And for me, for example, there is no problem I couldn't 'run away' from. The thing with running and working out and trying different things is, that a body can often do what you wouldn't expect from it. People, at least in Europe, are so used to thinking less of themselves than they actually are. But then you do something, for example run, and get so surprised how ell your body can keep on running for example 10 minutes. And then suddenly for 20. And 60. And out of nowhere the distance that took you 30 minutes to run, only takes 22 and you see how nice and cool your body is, you yourself are. And realize that all this (in lack of a better word) shit around you is just a passing thing and it's nothing you couldn't handle, because you now know that your body and your self are just fine and keep getting better and better :).
Being friends with yourself and your body, I hope, (I believe it's probably scientifically proved as well as it makes such sense), makes people not to see their body as an ugly enemy and not to treat it with a'la 'starve now body, you're fat and ugly, you don't deserve food' - type weightloss things nor stuffing it with all kinds of fatty and sugary and salty (or just 'any kind') of food just because you can. I think feeling good about yourself makes you wanna do good for your self and just provide the best - the most beneficial things.

..and getting them good things makes you feel great and run faster :P. So it's like a dead circle but an alive one. A very very alive one. That is why I love running.
Plus you can always turn it into a social activity and run together with all the people you like. Or away from the ones you don't, for that matter :D. But it is a nice way to spend time with you're loved ones - including yourself.

I do miss mom and horses too. Already forever . So: "Me and my mom after finishing a marathon ":) :

All the best, 

Kirsi

Wednesday 07.03.2012 menu

I almost forgot about my promise to post every Wednesday and Sunday menu here. And I almost forgot it was Wednesday. But here it is

Breakfast: bun with strawberry jam
10:00 (after spinning class and biking to school): muesli bar, apple, ricecake with cheese (a so fatty one, that it tastes disgusting and you can smell it as well :(, that's the only one we have at school :/ )
Lunch (for lazy poor people who rather sleep than cook): carrots and celery  
14:00: ryebread and tomato
Dinner: vegetable soup, tomato, mozzarella, homemade pesto, crisp bread
21:00 (after workout): meal replacement drink with protein and carbs, 200kcal per serving.

..and once again, I've been eating too much protein - it keeps on happening ever since March started, it never happened before, although the main source of protein in one's diet is meat :/
I guess it's good that I forgot that I should post it, because I'm sure I would have made more effort eating if I'd known I have to publish it :D.
As well it's notable that I had that meal replacement drink. I usually never have them, because it seems kind of stupid to sweat for an hour doing resistance training, barely burning 400kcal and then drinking about 200kcal of it back right after you've done. But I guess I have learned something in school (body needs the protein and carbohydrates after workout to rebuild muscles and restore energy) and I was oh so tired and figured my body will love it. I did (it was strawberry flavored :):)). I guess earlier I never cared of my body/muscles/energy and just wanted to be skinny. (Im glad to have a brain now)

It started snowing today.
I was biking the whole day and it was such a bad weather so I got all tired. Then in the evening I went to a Stram-op class and got even more tired. But it's that nice tiredness when you're almost proud to feel it :D.
So it was sooo nice to relax in the sauna and steam sauna and bubble bath (I do not know how to spell the other word :D)). BUT it is almost impossible when it's a gym and men and women's sauna is the same. In the steam sauna I tried to solve the problem by being Nastja from Russia and not speaking any languages, but it got really annoying so I went to the bubble bath where three black about 15-year-old jalllla-walla-(=arab)guys were sitting and managed to spend about 5 minutes. I was so proud of myself, as it was so crazy/scary/wanna-laugh thing when all them little black legs and hands start appearing between the bubbles and touching you under water, coming closer and closer and the dudes keep having the same really neutral face pa :D. So I left and came home. And now im in my bed, ready to go to sleep and just caught myself thinking ' Oh I cannot be bothered participating in tomorrow', because that's just how I feel - would like to make tomorrow happen without me and be back existing on Friday.
I think I'm gonna eat tatar( Sorry, its Estonian, the name) tomorrow to motivate me because it is my most favorite favorite food and if that won't do the job then nothing won't. Or maybe horse-riding could as well, but tatar is more in accordance with my budget :D.

There's so much more I've been wanting to write, but right now I wanna sleep. I promise to do it asap though :).
Good night.
xoxo
me

Note to self

It's the boringest :D idea ever  to have a blog about what's one eating. I promise I'll do something about it :D.

Sunday #1

Huuuuh. I got so awfully upset just now. Was trying to change my profile photo, but ended up deleting it and not being able to replace it. Girls.

But the March has so far been amazing! :) On the first two days I got kind of annoyed when I bought a pasta salad and then realized it has ham in it and when I made a machine sandwich (I guess its a French toast with ham and cheese) and had to give it away, but now Im getting more and more into it, and feel really good. It seems exciting and interesting and so far I've had no cravings for meat/alcohol/cigarettes. I think it's because I have already decided that I'm going to do it until April and therefore my mind don't see the point in thinking about it over and over again as the decision has already been made. And I wasn't actually expecting it but it is really nice.
The main change in my diet has been kind of weird - I consume too much protein every day. I guess that's because I've been researching and thinking about it so much and was afraid to get low in it that now I end up overdoing it. The same goes for B12. 
My social life - is actually still fine as well even though March has been lasting from Thursday til Sunday. I didnt feel as if going out this weekend - maybe next one, but I didnt want to be with my friends (who I really like and appreciate) if their drinking, smoking and eating junk as it usually is on weekends. But then on Saturday I was invited to go and see a live football mach, that was really fun especially that it's warmer now and you dont have to freze while watching it as before. And today went to the pool and sauna with my new cool roommate Laura. It was so so nice :).
As well it's weird that weekend actually seems shorter if you dont go out and stay in all evenings. But I am so rested and probably more intelligent as I have watched 3 movies (Valentine's Day; Blood and Chocolate and Ghandi and if not all, then at least last two of them are really really interesting) and as well I borrowed loads of books on friday and am now reading the coolest book about Vietnam war and another one about little black dresses and a third one in Danish.
The exercising week has been really cool too. A fitness center had this campaign that try two weeks for free, so I've been participating in different classes, worked out on my own and as the sun is shining almost aaaal the time then went running as well :).
Tomorrow I'm gonna spend my day in the gym practicing for my work placement. And until Thursday I can use the fitness center as well. But I have no plans yet.

I guess that's about it. And as promised my today's menu cause it is a Sunday:
Breakfast (oh so late): omelet with broccoli and tomato, cucumber, celery salad. Natural yogurt, mustard, crisp bread, coffee.
2 pm: puree soup with almonds; ciabatta, milk; fresh pineapple
5pm: 1/2 grapefruit,  pineapple
6pm: worlds best salad (number 21 here :)) ryebread
8pm: toast with tomato

That's it :). But now I'm gonna read a book and eat some candy I think :).
Have a nice week :)

Helllllllooooo March! :)

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